Placing my Faith

I wish I could remember the day, that moment that I changed. It was somewhere between the third or forth grade.

I found  worry. And it clug to me for years. 

My foundation shook and I began that slow crumble. My parents didn’t even like each other, I could tell.
I have lots to share in between then and now but fast forward to present day and that change spawned the insecure, push them away before they leave you, somewhat cynical woman you have today.
 But tonight I am done. I believe beyond a shadow of a doubt that God truly has a plan for us (me included) that he and he alone will provide for us. He will lead is where we are ment to be. He is in total control. We/I  am not. 
Dear God please show is your plan use us/me for your glory. I will honor you all the days of my life.
 Amen 
a child of God 

The Face of Cancer

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I am trying so hard to read this and believe this and I know in my heart It to be true. but on days like today I find myself just grasping to this

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Just got some horrible news another face, another loved one, another name attached to cancer.

Finley age 8

A dear friends niece  had emergency surgery on Thursday, doctors found a tumor in her stomach removed part of her bowl and appendix and found out today that she has Burkitt’s Lymphoma. Finley is being transported tomorrow to St Jude’s to determine the stage the cancer is in and will begin chemo on Monday. My heart is just breaking. Please pray for her doctors at St Jude’s. Praise God they are so close to such an amazing hospital. Please pray for her entire family Jase & Megan her brother Jack, Keith & Brooke, Harper & Cole. Pray for my best friend who I am not sure can handle another loss. Pray for God to heal her and for the best possible results on Monday.

Please pass on we need as many prayers as we can get.

xoxo, kathryn

FAITH, I have it. Do you?

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Faith can be described many ways but to me faith is essentially believing that there is something bigger than I, Believing that just because I can not see it or taste it, It is real. It is true. It is necessary. Believing it is there and will be right,

I am putting EVERY single ounce of faith (right now) into knowing one clear and certain thing, we will call it x . If and only if it is to be His will it will happen. I believe it like I believe the sun will come up tomorrow morning, that sweet tea with lemon makes me smile. That when I prayed and prayed this was the answer I received “ask and it will be given to you; seek& you will find; knock & a door will open to you. for everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds: and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.” Matthew 7: 7-8 Pretty powerful. Praying for Faith.

xoxo, mama bird

LET IT GO

 

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What a wonderful thursday morning at MOMS. I left feeling stronger and more confident than before. I am really trying to truly let it go and give it all to God. I am confident that by giving all the doubts and worries to him that I will indeed be a better wife, mother, friend, person.

There is so much weighing on my heart and I truly believe God led me to these women because he knew there was something that each of them would teach me.

One of todays questions was what we it take to make you feel free. Free from Financial Black hole! And 3 hrs after class it totally hit me. The biggest burden I have is taking care of everything!  Home, groceries, cooking, cleaning. pool, garden, dogs, all sports, homework.  I am (trying to)  happy that hubs job is going so well. He provides for our family. I am just the extras. But my biggest confession is that I hate to pay bills. hate to deal with money. Hate to have to do EVERYTHING! so I made the executive  decision that I am done with the bills. DONE! I have to LET IT GO!!! I know by releasing this burden I will Feel a sense of relief but, I too will worry if all is ok with it but again I have to let something go and this is my 1st step toward letting a little CONTROL go. Wish Me Luck!!

xoxo, Mama Bird